I feel like I'm kind of a doormat 😩

MacKenzi
So my boyfriend and I, it's kind of a messy situation. When we first started dating he had a girlfriend. He was about to break up with her so I didn't feel too bad. They broke up because she found out about him hanging out with me and so that made things weird and hard because she wouldn't go away. She's constantly still trying to get him back and won't go away even though he's made it very clear he doesn't want to be with her at all. It always looked like they were still together so I accused him of that a lot and we'd fight about that. Okay so there's that. Then my mom didn't approve of him so that makes things hard because it's hard to see him. And when I do I have to hide it. So we have a very interesting relationship. I love him very very much, as he loves me. And we both care about each other immensely. Sometimes he goes MIA and ignore me for a few days and I hate it and he knows that. I have some trust issues because in my last relationship I was cheated on and it broke me. So when he does go MIA my first thoughts are he probably is with another girl, or something along those lines. He's also in a band which had interfered with us hanging out a few times. Like last weekend. We had all these plans and I had done so much work just to see him for 2 hours and then he said oh I have band practice today. Tyler called me a bit ago. I'm just like wow. I did so much work for you to flake. Made plans to have to hang out with my crazy fucking family for you to flake. I was so mad. Well he ignored me for the last three days, could see he read all my messages, so I messaged him saying "please talk to me" and all I got was what is it in the pictures...and I'm so stuck. Like I love him and everything but my friends don't like him and my parents don't...idk what to do. I can't leave him, I'd be pretty lost...but like I also don't know if I'm being a doormat for putting up with everything he does...