Hard time

Where to begin,

Me and my Husband are 33 , we both have previous children (both boys prior marriage for me and “THOT” for him) (mine 11, his 10).

I took out my IUD in 2014 since then we have never used any preventative! We finally got pregnant in July(Estimate) , BUT we had no idea till in September 24th I was feeling horrible and thought I was having a kidney Infection....... which ended up being an ectopic pregnancy 8 wks along to which I had NO CLUE I was pregnant! (Basically I was told by my gyno , he didn’t understand why I wasn’t pregnant (in July)so we gave up so I quit tracking really) so on the day they told me I was 8 to 10 wks pregnant I was in shock but made sense I had sensitive boobs , I couldn’t eat salmon which was my favorite and I was always randomly throwing up.... yes I know sounds like I would know I was pregnant but I took pregnancy tests in July / August and they all were Negative! But on the day in September I had to have my Right tube removed during the emergency surgery!

Now to present day, I’m just completely discouraged, I take more pregnancy tests then I should then immediately hit a depressed state when I see the Negative! And it doesn’t make sense! My other tube is very healthy I’m having VERY painful periods with only my 1 tube! And I know I’m ovulating by the clear egg white fluid(I can’t think of the name as I’m writing this)!

I just feel like it’s never going to happen now that I only have 1 tube! I know the logical thing to do is suck it up but I’ve been so emotional and discouraged and I’m not sure if it’s because I’m not over the first loss or the continued let down of negative tests afterwards!

It’s truly just hard emotionally and am seeing if I’m the only one out here going through this!? Or if you have a similar story please share tricks or tips to conceive!

Thank you very much!