I feel like I have been put into this situation where I have to choose between my child and my husband. We have had a messed up living situation for a the past year. We were living with my mom. She was giving us the house. Well right before she moved out, her husband and my brother wanted to move in, saying that it was going to be temporary. That was back in October. They are still here. My family has treated me like shit my entire life. They have turned my son against me. Well lately my stepdad has been trying to turn me against my husband and his daughter that we just got CPS custody of. Saying that what I'm being told from one person I'm being told the opposite by the other. I am almost 9 weeks pregnant and I cant handle this stress. I dont know what else to do. I have a counseling appointment made, recommended by my doctor, but it's not until may 7th. I was told that if I'm feeling this stressed and wanting to hurt myself that I need to go to the er. But I dont have a car, or anyone who I can trust enough to not get mad at me for it, I have called into work for the night. Because I can't pull myself together, and I am planning to call one of the hotlines just to talk to someone. I have been journaling. I have done all the coping I can think of. And not having a whole lot of calming. Like I said I am planning to call a hotline to talk to someone, since I am unable to go to the er tonight. But I don't know what else to do. My husband is to the point that he's ready to say fuck this house they can figure out what to do with it, and we get our own place. But hes also ready to just go back to his mom's until he can find an apartment for him and his daughter. Essentially leaving me, pregnant and alone in the world. I have been feeling like killing myself would be my best option, because no one will have to deal with my opinion anymore. They wont have to deal with me being angry about this situation. I just feel like I cant win.