I'm not even sure I want to have a baby any more,... It's been a couple of weeks since I lost a chemical pregnancy and hubs and I have had no sex, I have ZERO interest. I have been psyching myself out with thinking what we would do with a baby while we worked, we can't afford either one of us to quit and stay home and childcare would eat up a salary so that's just as bad. I had such an optimistic "we'll figure it out" attitude and now I'm reconsidering everything but our marriage and home. Do I like my job? What about hubs? We should get a new computer so I can try working from home... But hubs needs a new car we should save for that... Ugh my clothes are so gross I dress like a forty years old, but if I buy clothes then get pregnant nothing will fit... I don't even know that I WANT to get pregnant... What if it happens again? What if it doesn't and then we can't afford childcare and I have to quit my job, then we can't afford the house so we have to move somewhere that will take our pets... Clearly I have lost my mind! And sweet hubs doesn't understand even a little bit.