Give up trying

I am ready to throw in the towel. I had my Mirena removed this time in March 2014. My DH is testosterone but due to his Dr.'s illness the stand in refused to refill his RX I know that getting pregnant is hard and nearly impossible with him on this. But I was hoping that I might be that one. I have heard that if he goes off of it for at least 30 days that his count will increase or go back to normal. But I am so tired of being disappointed when AF comes. This month she is early I am normally 30-32 but started today day 29. Maybe it's the emotions talking but I am just tired of waiting. DH refuses to get sperm count we have two children and I want one more. His philosophy is if it happens great, if not he won't be upset. I don't think he knows the emotional turmoil within me and am not sure if he really cares to understand.