I have type 1-A Von Willebrands disease

I've been on birth control since I was 12

And I'm trying to have a baby

I was told at a very young age if I wanted to be a mommy in the future it would be very hard for me.

Because I've been on birth control since a young age I knew that had lowered my chances of having kids.

My mom doesn't understand that I am hurting because I feel like I will never have children.

I want to go to a fertility specialist and see what they think but I have no insurance and I work at Subway part time so I'll never have the money..

My husband reassures me and tells me it will all be okay because we WILL have kids one day.

But it's at the point where I have given up hope and feel like I will never become the mother I have always wanted to be.

If you have any idea of what I'm going through or have a blood disease and have been on birth control for a significant amount of time.

Please help me figure out what I can do.

I am at the point of breaking down into a deep hole of depression and I can't stand feeling this way.

Please let me know what I can do or if you have any advice I'd appreciate it!

Thank you!