As I sit here with sit 1 week old and a 2 year old that has a fever at 4am while you sleeping like a baby and I am up running around like a chicken with my head cut off and I been up since yesterday. I am so pissed that you are in your deepest most peaceful sleep while I am so sleep deprived. I should not have to ask you for your help and you are here. She wakes up during the night.. where are you? Sleep. You hear the baby crying right next to you!! Why wont you take 2 seconds to pick her up and console her? Oh wait its because you have a drink in your hand watching anime and on facebook like you need a break. You are here but you are not here. You choose to be present when you want. Then you quit your job while I am on maternity leave. I am looking for jobs for you while you sleep and you have the audacity enough to be picky. I just want to be helped without asking. You see I am in pain!! Sitting up half asleep and falling asleep while doing normal tasks. I am tired, annoyed, and hate that I love you to try to look over your ignorance. Lack of responsibility or urgency to be the provider. Sorry if its jumbled. I just needed to vent.

*I have tried to discuss all of this with him to no avail*