So I had deactivated Facebook on my TTC journey. It was hard seeing my pregnant friends constantly post about it.

Somehow it didn't deactivate and I went back in and saw like 3 more people are expecting. 1 in September and 2 in October.

I've lost 2 pregnancy and praying that this one is a healthy one. Now that I know I'm terrified if I lose this one too that this will eat me alive. My friend is about to have her baby. So there's a lot all at once.

I already went to therapy for help because I started getting bitter and mad. Pushing people away.

I will do anything to save this pregnancy. To finally become a mom that I have always wanted. Every bday since I can remember yes even about 5-6 years old , every candle blown out I'd ask to become a mom. I've never had a career path. This is all I ever wanted.