Pretty sure I lost the guy I thought I would marry. We had a blast last night until we got back to his house.. we started doing things (I'm on my period so sex was out of the question for us anyway). So he was just on top sucking on my boobs and stuff. It was my first time trying stuff w a guy after my ex sexually abused me so I was pretty skittish.. I couldnt ever get the nerve up to suck his dick but I gave him a handjob and he wasnt cumming so I got embarrassed and self conscious and stopped and told him my tummy was cramping too bad to do stuff. I cant stop crying because I'm literally so embarrassed bc now he isnt talking to me and he probably thinks I'm trash at doing stuff😭 what do I do?? I've tried apologizing and explaining that I was so nervous but no text back and I know he's awake because he's been on insta this morning. But then I feel like if he really loved me like he says then he would tell me it's okay and we can try again..😭 I'm so emotional😭😭