Update: thank you all for your advice. Logan never came home last night. Reading all of your comments through the night was very reassuring to me that I wasn't overreacting. I have reached out to someone and am seriously considering going to a transitional home. If that doesn't work out, I'll be going to stay with a (girl) friend a few hours away. Please pray for him.

Is it sexual assault if it comes from my husband? Tonight, I went to sleep around 11:30 PM. At 12:33 am, I woke up to my husband's hand in my panties. I was so tired and I thought maybe if I pretended to stay sleeping that he would stop. Also, I didn't want to start a fight by saying no to him because our 3 month old son was sleeping next to me in his bassinet. I was wrong. Over the course of 11 minutes, he was rubbing my clit, putting his fingers in me and he finished by going down on me. All while he thought I was asleep. He stopped what he was doing three times to do something with his phone while pulling my panties to the side. I think he took pictures. He stopped a fourth time and did something on his phone with the flashlight on...again, he put his phone by my crotch and had my panties pulled to the side. I think he was taking a video of himself playing with me. When he decided that he was done going down on me, he left the bedroom.

I feel like I should be mad or sad or feeling anything really. Instead, I feel nothing. I'm upset about it but only I'm so confused. Otherwise, I just feel completely numb to the whole situation. What do I do??