So I keep thinking I have pcos since being with my new boyfriend nearly 2 years now I was in a horrible relationship with my ex and I lost some weight as he made me feel very insecure he told me I was fat I went to the gym for 9 months straight with my best friend I had so much motivation and lost weight but again I didn’t see it still convinced myself I was fat when I broke up with my ex I got with my current bf who helped me get over him he even chased the wanker down the road with a spanner bless him 🤣 but as we got very comfy I starting eating for the sake of I was happy but my depression was kicking in at the same time for my work and thinking I’m not going to qualify but it got worse since being with my bf I have currently put on 3 stone in less than a year which I think is very bad and now it’s stopped at 16st and it’s hard to diet I have too many craving even though I know the food I eat a lot won’t go away it will still be there after I achieve my body but I noticed once I hit 16st I noticed that my periods started to become quite uncommon the last proper period I had was in November 2018 and after that period was June 29th 2018 and I have just again missed one yes I’m sexually active with my bf we have a little fun when I see him like every few days or so we have been using unprotected had a few pregnancy scares and still comes out negative which not sure which is the problem my weight or do I have PSCO I’m seeing a doctor soon when I’m not at college and working and jumping between London and where I live which is at least 40 miles it’s so much and I need a car ASAP which should help me but I’m stress I’m depressed I have a very unhealthy mind and it don’t help that I have so much on my back I have tried to diet again and go to the gym but the motivation is not there I find it hard I have Easter holidays and been away for 3 weeks and I’m only eating dinner nothing else so I have lost a little bit of weight but since being home I crave food I feel unhappy and I wanna eat my feeling away I’m hiding I have so much money I can use which is nothing so I hate my parents providing me food I keep saying don’t worry I’ll eat later and I wanna run away ditch college and work I don’t know what to do