Update: I did apologize to him for mushing him... I told him I just didnt know how to react with this being my first time catching him after 14 years together and on our 3rd child. He also apologized back to me. I know everyone has their own opinion and lifestyle but this was just out of our lifestyle. I love him still unconditionally and this just felt wrong to me. But this is something we can and will definitely overcome.

* I'm currently 39 weeks pregnant. My husband knows I'm down for sex always right now especially with a C section in 1 day! Well we been together for 14 years and today was the first time iv walked in on him! He was finished but tried to deny it even tho there was proof. He finally admitted to it and I got so angry and mushed (mashed, pushed his face) him! I got hysterically upset. 1 reason is because he knows I'm always wanting it right now, 2 because I'm already feeling unattractive and not good enough and 3 because I gave him "the look" when he walked in from work. So he knew I wanted it! Like why couldnt he just tell me to come here? This is bothering me and I dont know if it's my pregnancy and I'm overreacting or what it is but I cant get it off my brain and I just want to go to sleep! 😩😩😩

Also to add, I asked for some tonight before we went went to bed and said u cant do it can you. He slightly laughed and asked why I wanted to fuss.... that's turning me down due to masterbating... I have a major issue with this! 😤🤬