looking at this picture makes me want to cry. (it’s nothing about my beautiful boyfriend in the picture)

but, my body. i look ridiculous. i’ve been sitting here crying at the way i look for the past month now. and it’s harder to lose weight because of my anti depressants that i’ve taken. i even stopped taking them so i don’t gain anymore. i gained 30 lbs in 3 months and i look disgusting. i don’t know what to do or how to move on from this. i just feel so nasty.

on top of that, while me and my boyfriend have sex i’m just so out of breath after riding for at least 2 minutes and i cry after for a bit. i don’t know what i should do.

but other than that, i’m happy with my man and the sex is still amazing and he tells me my body is beautiful. he says he’ll try to help as much as he can to make me feel more confident.