Idk if I’m still pregnant.

I just found out I was pregnant about a week ago. I’ve gotten blood work twice and my hormone levels aren’t rising the way they should and I’ve had light bleeding for a week. It started off as light pink and now it’s red. I’m going to have my first ultrasound today to get a better idea of what’s going on. I’m afraid of having an ectopic pregnancy or miscarriage. I had an abortion when I was 25 and not in a committed relationship. My mind keeps tracking to one word karma. I haven’t told anyone I’m pregnant. My husband already told some of his closest friends. I was really looking forward to telling my mom she’s going to be a grandmother on Mother’s Day. I’ll find out more today. I just needed to vent on here since I haven’t told anyone. :/