‼️1st Pregnancy, over weight, seizures & needs help ⁉️

So I’ll be secretly taking my birth control out on May 11th. I won’t tell my boyfriend or mother until I find out I’m pregnant.. this has been really hard to keep in. Their both are the ones I tell everything.. Its been a big topic for all of us for a while now. I’m very scared but I feel I’m ready. I’m a little overweight and have been working out, I have seizures in my sleep since I’ve been 16 and we still don’t know the reason why. I don’t know how/what am I suppose to do to feel comfortable or even try to make myself healthy. My mind is all over the place and I can’t even describe how I’m feeling. .. since I have these health issues I’ve decided to keep this secret other than my close family. I truly need help, motivation, advice and support 🤦🏽‍♀️ please help 🙏🏾