What would this mean for you?

If your husband had "sexy photos" of you & in your relationship it was very clear that pleasuring yourself over another person was cheating & you were in hospital with bleeding while pregnant & you found out that your partner did pleasure himself to porn... I dunno how many times this has happened id JUST given my husband my old iPhone (the first one that saves the deleted photos for a bit) anyway I was looking for a receipt & came across full open pussy photos etc he's response when I said what are these on your phone was "what do you want for lunch" he admitted to pleasing himself but promised it was a one & only time cos he couldn't sleep (he was away for work) I don't mind if YOU are okay with you the wanking bit that's not the debate I'm after it's the trust & who here honesty thinks it was the first time verse he just got caught? I wish I posted this a loooong time ago it's almost 2 years later & I still can't sleep with him or if I do I don't enjoy it anymore I'm depressed & don't feel like "the only girl in the world now" what do you honestly think? I just see him as a pig now... we are just mates raising kids now I think 😣