I’m pregnant and terrified..

I’m 22 years old about 8 weeks pregnant haven’t set up my first appointment and the cramps are real today I’ve figured out how to control my nausea for the most part, but these things aren’t what I’m most afraid of.. I’m scared to grow, I’m scared to give labor, I’m scared of not eating the right amount of kale and messing my baby up for life.. I wanted to be a mom, I preferred being an adoptive-parent one day but God had other plans.. but I’m terrified.. oh did I mention I’m about to break up with the baby daddy and he doesn’t know and I don’t know whether or not to ever tell him. What am I doing 😭😭😭