Depressed with how I look 😩 PICS**

Feeling very emotionally depressed and insecure in how I look these days. I never thought me being such a scrawny girl like me would end up gaining so much weight. Baby fat that is. I still look like I'm 5 months pregnant. I have had 3 beautiful children which I do not regret. But the belly just never went down even with breastfeeding. This pouch got bigger the more children I had. My husband tells me he still loves me and still loves our sex like if it was our first time but I just can't enjoy it because I don't feel sexy, I feel like I can not move like I did when being intimate. I feel and look sloppy. But I can't find the time to work this body out which is crazy because I'm a stay at home mommy taking care of our 2 year old & 3 month old baby plus I baby sit 2 other children that are not mine 5 days of the week. Anyway, I'm just rambling on....but what are ways to tighten or loose this pouch? Also, i want my lean arms back I feel like my whole upper body got big (I guess I have an apple body shape) 😭 Mind you I'm breastfeeding so I'm not looking into taking any pills to loose weight.