I am feeling honestly worthless right now. And I’m sure I’m being dramatic but I can’t get pregnant... I’ve only been trying for 18+ months and I know it can take years or never happen at all. And honestly today I feel like it’s never going to happen at all. I’m defeated I feel like I’m letting my family down and most of all my husband. I desperately want to look at my sweet baby and see my husbands handsome face. Others around me tell me to look to god for the answers I’m searching for but I’ve never been religious. I WISH I could believe I probably wouldn’t feel like such a failure. All my life all I’ve ever said I wanted to be is a mommy. I just want a healthy baby. All I want to do is cry.