Guilt after Masturbation

I usually don’t masturbate often but when I do I have to watch porn or else I won’t be able to orgasm and get wet I don’t know if that’s normal ? Anyways after I’m done I feel so much guilt mainly because I was watching porn I’m 17 years old and I’ve been masturbating since I was 15 and I also feel weird because I’m a girl and girls don’t really talk about how they masturbate it’s mainly a guy thing 🤷🏽‍♀️ I just feel like I’m the only one who masturbates and I also feel really guilt on how I have to watch porn in order to feel the pleasure and get wet .