Loosing hope 😔

We have been trying since October 2017. I know not to symptom spot cause it always gets my Hope's up 🙄🙄🙄 crazy cycles (thanks pcos) supposedly 2 days from af but none of my normal( aka none )symptoms are here. Instead they have been replaced by my boobs getting incredibly sore and full feeling and a backache, headache, and exhaustion yayy 😂 I tested positive with my daughter at 9 dpo so I'm afraid I'm out this time 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ did anyone not even get a faint positive 2 days before af then actually was pregnant?? I feel awful probably just getting my Hopes up but this is definitely unusual for me 🤦‍♀️🐣