This guy, who we’ll call grapes, I met a few month ago, wants to hang out with me today. The last time we hung out he bought me food, smoked me out, he brought wine & we ended up having sex. Honestly, the way he did me was soo good & he got me really wet BUT recently I’ve been (seriously?) dating someone, who we’ll call Apple, who I’ve been basically on and off with (even tho we’re not a couple🙄). Apple & I been talking for several months & in the beginning & middle, things were patchy and communication skills were horrible. We would have arguments as well as periods where we wouldn’t talk for a few days or up to a week or so. Well when grapes & I got together, it was during that period Apple & I weren’t talking. Whole time Apple got locked up & ofc I didn’t know.

Before he “disappeared” on me, we made plans to see each other twice & he didn’t hit me up when it came to that time (which is something he does a lot whether it’s intentional or not but he makes it feel intentional even tho I know he works a lot). That made me mad ofc so I gave my space. I eventually texted/called him a little after & when I got no response I took it as an “ok we’re in the not talking period.”

SO because I didn’t know & figured he was done with me, (since it was the longest time we haven’t been in contact) I met grapes.

Here’s the dilemma NOW:

I want to hang out with grapes today but honestly, I know I’m gonna want him to give me the D but I also honestly think he’s really cool BUT Apple & I are still talking. Things with Apple & I now have improved & tho we’re both single, he’s made it apparent to me that we’re dating & I know it would hurt him if I was with someone else. We see each other often & things with us are ofc intimate. We still have communication problems but now he’s willing to work with me & try to change. I like him obviously & I can definitely see myself being with him. Tho I say that I still don’t know how to respond to grapes because tho I’m single & I can technically do whatever I want, I would have that guilt sleeping with grapes whenever I’m around Apple but 2019, so fuck it right?😎😂😭