“Personal Massager”

So welp ummm I’m going into highschool soon and we’ll actually Ive wanted a vibrator since I was last year 7th grade and like and umm IM SORRY I CAN NEVER TALK ABOUT THIS WITH ANYONE SO IDK HOW TO but like I want to masturbate but my hand isn’t really enough for me and wanted to buy a “personal massager” but I like I wanted to know if I’m too young (tbh I feel ready but I don’t want to make a mistake getting one too early) also my mom is 100% against masturbation but she works at night on Friday and Saturday night sooo I meannn 😏 IM SORRY IM WEIRD XD