I have had 3 losses and it hurts so bad. My first was a stillborn in 2003. 2nd was a miscarriage in 2014 after trying for 3 years, and the 3rd was February this year ( 5 years exact since the 2014 one). We went through 2 years of tests and all came back normal. Now I have to repeat some and have new ones to go through. It's so hard to understand! I work in mental health and addiction, seen many girls shooting up or doing dragons while pregnant and besides the horrible detox the babies go through, they are healthy and the mom's continue to get pregnant. Everything apparently happens for a reason..... I have a hard time believing that