IM BIGGER THAN MY BOYFRIEND!! but he still loves me

Okay glow friends I have not been on here in a while or payed anything but I am in a very low mood today, well to start off I want to say even if no one reads this I still feel better getting it off of my chest !!

Okay so I met my boyfriend last November after a very bad break up.. we hung out for three months then ended up moving in together in February, I was always scared to be myself around him and show off my body because I lost over 70 lbs I went from 250 to 180 over the past year .. so anyway one day we were laying in bed and he just grabbed me by my waist and brung me closer to him ( he is 22 I'm 21 btw ) and Just started giving me sum ( sorry if it is innoppropriate or rude) but I felt at ease a lot after that.. well my boyfriend ended up getting in some trouble and went to jail when I talk to him he always tell me how he miss me and how he's ready to get home and that he never told me but I am very beautiful and that if my stomach was a lil smaller I would be a bad bitch lol we were joking around as we always do ... Well he always been the type to bring me around his friends and family no matter how I looked or what they thought but for some reason I feel like because I'm not the NORMAL standard he usually dates , that they don't like me ... Although his mom is plus size and she's beautiful 😍 I would think he wouldn't care well I met his little brothers girlfriend and she is drop dead gorgeous !! They asked me exactly how did I meet him and when I said he wrote me they laughed and was astounded I felt horrible like because I'm plus size he can't have interest in me 😭 well I told him how I feel and he basically told me that he don't care what anyone thinks he like me and that's what matter and that I'm not even big .. I catch myself staring in the CV mirror at my insecurities because I mean he is 6'4" I'm 5'2" he had tattoos and it's lights skinned he has and and perfect white teeth (I stare at him) lol so he comes home in two weeks and told me that he gained some weight that he is 200 lbs and I'm going to love his new look ... I guess my question to you all is should I feel like he gained weight because of my insecurities (that's selfish I know) or should I think it's just his preference !! Also I've been told he is way to fine to like me he must be using me west actually talk about it all the time and he always give me money helps with the bills he is in jail and paid my phone bill lol like he's not using me for sure so maybe I am his type ? Btw he has two little girls from his last relationship she was not a BBW but I believe I'm way prettier than his ex 😂 I have a few quotes I want to post .. what should I do to be sexy when he comes home ? Any suggestions ? I want it to be romantic and make him want me even more 😘😘😘 thanks everyone have a blessed morning