Okay so basically i have a lot of mental issues and im pretty sure my dad hates me and will disown me or kick me out. However i dont have a job or any money and i have no other place to go. Im 18 and i dont care about the possible consequences. The only thing stopping me is that im pretty sure im gonna kill myself if i actually do run away. Like, i dont want to die, but theres like nothing else for me left. My dad claims he loves me but everytime i express my real emotions he treats me like a freak and always says something is wrong with me. I just feel like a burden. I think the only reason why he hasnt kicked me out ywt is because he knows ill kill myself. Legit i need advice? I dont know how much longer i can put up with things..