Hopeful or unrealistic?

In the dozens of pregnancy tests I’ve taken, I have NEVER had to give them a second look, NEVER wondered, they have always been negative.

My eyes, my heart, my soul, wants to see a BFP so badly, I’m worried I’m willing that vvvvvvvfl to exist.

Test 1: 13 DPO four hour hold

Test 2: (the one with the ring) 14 DPO FMU