I miscarried in october 2018 and february 2019, first one was a blighted ovum and this one i saw heartbeat 8+5 and it stopped 9+0.. In this pregnancy i cant be happy, i just know it Will happen again. Aargh i hate it. I want a baby so much. I was spotting 4+0, red blood, only one little red spot, and then 4 days with Brown old blood, i went to a scanning the Day after, there was as I expected nothing to see yet. But I AM afraid. But I just have a bad feeling. I want to be happy about it, but its like i can not let My self be that. Because im sure it end the same way again.