Defeated

I’m having the hardest time! My period is due in 4 days. I had a chemical pregnancy in early March & I so badly want to be pregnant again. We had gotten pregnant first month trying & now I’m just incredibly defeated that it’s not happening again & I don’t know what to think or do. This month I thought we’d get it & was so excited. Then nothing was like it usually is after ovulation. Now boobs are oddly sore but all BFN! Last time I got my positive 4 days before my period. It’s beyond frustrating & I’m feeling positive it’s just not going to happen for me this month or anytime soon. It’s devastating... constant reminder of what I had & what could have been.