I’ve had constant waves of depression since I was 9 I’m now 17 i have never told anyone because I don’t want pity and people to think I’m weak, when I was younger I figured everyone had depression at that age which made it even worse thinking I was just weak as I got older I realised not everyone had it and it made me very self conscious about everything and I just fucking hate my self even something little will set it off I’m just soo insecure I have really bad anxiety and think I’m worthless I don’t trust anyone no one knows the real me even I don’t I just don’t feel like doing anything I can’t sleep I don’t like food I have had other problems but I don’t feel comfortable sharing them I just wish I had someone who I could trust but every time I start to get close to someone I just get super insecure and feel like they will brake my trust and it’s happened sooooo many times before I just can’t take it again please don’t tell me to get help I’m not comfortable telling someone personally that’s why I’m posting this anonymously but if you have any other suggestions I’d love to hear them