We’ve been trying since the beginning of December and before that I would say my periods were consistent and always the same...

Since TTC my periods have been WHACK!! They’re shorter, lighter, and have come a few days early, a week early, one showed up on time, and then last month (March) I didn’t have one and then 2 weeks later AF showed her ugly face. I had all these pre-symptoms and got my hopes up- my fiancé and I talked like i already was pregnant once my period was a week late.

I cried for 3 days straight, isolated myself, and refused to go on my phone. I feel like no one around me understands how bad it hurts. I hate hearing “It’s ok, it’ll happen soon.” Because it just feels so distant now. I feel like there’s something wrong with me and that I’m the one keeping a sweet baby away.

The day after my period someone showed me there BFP and i felt my heart get heavy and shatter. It’s so hard to be around, look at, or anything baby. I know it’s selfish especially because I’ve been staying away from some family. I just feel so lost and helpless.

I feel like i have no one to turn to because no one takes a 19 year old wanting a child serious. My OBGYN didn’t even take me serious...

I just don’t know what to do anymore, i know i shouldn’t let BFN control my moods and how i feel and act. But it’s so hard.