Ultrasound Rant

Amanda • 🌿🌰🌱
So, this is my fourth pregnancy and for once I thought I'd splurge on getting the 3D since it's probably my last. The 3D ultrasound was totally worth it but unfortunately baby was uncooperative and i didn't get to see her face. I got some very detailed pictures of backs, legs and the oh-so prized between the legs shots. This happened at 16 wks even. Well, due to not having that cute profile picture or face, I simply thought I'd wait to announce on social media until my dr office one. LOL i didn't have that ultrasound until 24 wks and my office sonographer asked me if i knew the gender, i said i did and had it confirmed the many times i had to go get L&D ultrasounds for the various reasons they'd sent me over the weeks. She said she'd give me pics no problem and even mentioned we wouldn't have to do the obnoxious between the legs shot since i didn't want it and showed me on screen pictures of her chubby little face. WELL. When i was checking out and making my next appointment, they give me my ultrasound pics. It's literally three hardly even distinguishable BETWEEN THE LEG SHOTS. Ugh!!! I hate those! The only thing that keeps me from throwing them away is the same guilt i get when deleting blurry pictures of my daughter off my phone! I was probably more emotional about it than i should have been and embarrassed to feel that way, and asked if that was all i could keep, they said that's all they usually want. They said (completely understandable!) That it's only for medical purposes. I was heart broken. :( i know its selfish but i have scrap books for all my babies and i put their ultrasounds in there at different stages. It's stupid but I'm so angry. My SO couldn't make it and i reassured him so many times (it's his first biological baby with me) that we'd get pics becuase i always have with my others. I literally cried about the disappointment in his face when he asked for them.