Too scared to test

Rebecca

I’m too scared to take a test bc I don’t want to be disappointed. My period is late by a day or so. I have been having brown discharge on and off starting 8 days ago. I had a loss in January and we have been trying very hard since then. My husband doesn’t want me to test bc he doesn’t want me to be disappointed. I have a 16 month old and did have implantation bleeding with her that lasted 9 days... I thought it was my period. Should I wait and see if AF shows up or risk the tears and test?