Miscarriage and the Gospel

Hello friends! First off I have been using Glow since we have been ttc and today I finally found this group which I think is awesome! But I wanted to share my experience in hopes that it may help someone at some point. My husband and I had been ttc for 8 months before I became pregnant. We were newbies to the whole ttc.( I never understood what a fine science it was.) in March of this year I had had a MC. I was around 6 weeks and had started to experience the fun pregnancy symptoms. I was awoken by a wet feeling in my Gs. The last thing that entered my head was blood. So I woke up went to the restroom and found myself bleeding quite a bit. The night before I had had cramps but didn't think much of it. I went back in and woke my husband. I don't think he thought much of it and dozed back off. I on the other hand could not go back to sleep. I remember continuously praying and hoping that everything was ok. I had attempted to call my obgyn, but there office was still closed. I didn't really know what to do this was my first pregnancy and all so new to me. I continued to pray in my heart until finally 8 am had rolled around. I called my doctor and they said for me to come in. I woke my husband up again and this time I think he realized the seriousness behind it. I asked him to give me a blessing which he did. I remember him asking Heavenly Father "to do His will". Before we went to the doctor I asked him to pray. We knelt together and although he asked for our safety ( baby and I) that "if it be His will". We went to the doctor and they tested my hcg levels. They told us that I would have to test again on Friday to see if they had gone up or down. They did an ultrasound and couldn't find the baby. My heart sunk but I still had hope. We returned home and I was exhausted. My husband walked up to our room and I could hear sobs from downstairs. It had finally hit him. I walked up and told him it was ok that we were going to make it through this, although I wanted to curl up and cry with him. The next couple days I was in limbo. Waiting to see if there was a slight chance. The next day I felt more optimistic, by this time my sister and mom had known the situation. My sister (who is a mother of 5) called and we spoke. She strengthened me with quotes from apostles, thoughts of the plan of salvation and sayings like "it's ok nay, baby is with dad." I remember getting off the phone thinking maybe there's still a chance. I knelt in our guest bedroom and pleaded with Heavenly Father, but always keeping in mind if it be your will. I remember expressing that if it continued I would love the baby and give them the best gift I could, The Gospel. I felt peace and comfort afterwards that He was well aware of everything. The next day I went in for my shift at the Denver Temple, where I worked with some amazing people. Throughout my 6 hour shift I had opened up to some of the women that I was working with. I was shocked to hear that so many of them had experienced Misscarriage. Some of them multiple, but so many of them had also continued to have children. I knew then that Heavenly Father was aware of me and was surrounding me with loving sisters that had experienced similar feelings, emotions and sorrow I was going through. At the very end of my shift I was in the celestial room. Lucky enough the sessions were still going so I was able to sit there for 30 minutes by myself. I recall an overwhelming feeling of Love. I felt the Spirit of Comfort. I felt as if Heavely Father was extending His arms around me and allowing me to know that everything was going to be ok. That he was aware, and that he loved me. I remember crying coming to the knowing that His will at this time was for me not to be a mother. He assured me through inspiration that although at this time wasn't my time, at some time it will happen. I left the temple uplifted in spirit. I left knowing that my Father in Heaven knew me and was aware of my sorrow, and afflictions. My love for the Savior  and Atonement had increased. My love for the Gospel had increased. It's moments like these that we come to the realization what a blessing the Gospel is on our lives. That when the moments of life hit us and rock our world, if we have built our foundation on Christ and His Gospel we can overcome these obstacles with Faith in knowing we are not Alone in our turmoil. That someone has been sent to take away any "pain and afflictions...he will take upon him the pains and sicknesses of his people....and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities." (Alma 7:11-12).  I am so thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the blessing it's been in my life. I'm thankful for the knowledge of knowing that I am not alone in any "pain of affliction" I may go through. Although it may not be our time now and we are still ttc. I have unmovable faith that Heavenly Father when it be His will, will allow us that beautiful blessing of children. Whether in this life or the next, I know he is aware of us and our needs and has a plan. I know He loves me, I know he loves you, and no matter what struggles you may be going through in your life know that he is aware, turn to Him and allow his loving arms to embrace you. I know this Gospel is true, I know that the Book of Mormon is true and testifies of Christ. I know that Jesus Christ is the Savior of the world, King of all Kings, Messiah, Son of God, And even with all those titles He is still aware of each and everyone of us and loves us. I felt of his love numerous times and continue to daily. " Come unto me, all he that labour and are heavy laden,and I will give you rest." ( Matthew 11:28).