Feel myself slipping...

Cassie
I've been off medication (10mg of citloapram) from 5 weeks from docs advice. I'm now 37 weeks tomorrow and I feel like over the last week my anxiety has come back and it's making so paranoid and worried, I'm starting to worry about my worrying. I'm scared as up to this point I had done so well and really did feel okay but now I'm panicking about what life I will be giving my little boy. I feel selfish for doing this to him and failing him already. I don't understand what's going on in my head right now. Is this just a bad few days/week or is this me slipping ?