So me and my potential partner went through problems in the past and broke up.

The problem was from my side and I was too sad and too tired from it that I thought about suicide..at the same time I didn’t want to talk about it even with him and we broke up.

Not over a year ago we went back into talking about getting back and everything and we went through some minor problems but we passed them. Coming from a closed society we aren’t really allowed to be together in public alone without having a lot of rumors about us. At first it really bothered me and I denied everything and he was okay with it. But now I just don’t care tbh. And we recently hugged for the first time ever and I still have butterflies in my stomach whenever I think about it.

The problem is that these couple of days we got a little distant. It was after I told him that my parents know about us (because I don’t want them to know from someone else-RUMORS) today, he said that we need to talk. He talked about how he cannot forget what I did to him in the past after he got attached to me that time. I told him that I already explained why I did what I did and what I went through at that time. But he said that he feels that I connect all my problems with him and that we’re going too fast. And that I need to know his flaws first and all before going on with our relationship. He also said that I suddenly changed. That I used to treat him as a friend and then I changed it to a relationship treatment ( that hurt)

I explained to him how much I care and cared about it him and how it’s not easy for me to feel these things because it’s the first time and it somehow scares me that I’m falling this fast. Honestly I’m tired of writing the rest of the convo because I don’t wanna remember it but

I don’t know what to do

I don’t know what going on.

The things is that after that he wanted to close the topic all together and I’m still so confused.