Don’t feel like doing anything. Just don’t care

I want another baby but it’s been a year TTC. I’m so fed up w the constant disappointment that I don’t even care anymore. I’m becoming apathetic and I can’t stop feeling that way. I am too afraid to go see someone for my

Mental health bc no one but my husband knows my struggle. Idk what to do. I’m such a good fake happy person.. anyone relate?