So much anxiety!

I didn't use opk's this month and my cycles haven't been consistent since my ectopic in December (ruptured @ 8 weeks, emergency salpingectomy, lost my left tube) so I'm not 100% sure when I ovulated. I'm guessing I'll be 4 weeks tomorrow. I got my first bfp (vvvvfl) May 7 and these are my tests from Wed/Thurs/Fri/today. I have a doctor appt scheduled for this coming Thursday and it feels soo far away. I want an ultrasound ASAP (like right now) because I'm super scared of rupturing my remaining tube. Hopefully she'll send me for one the following week as I will be 5 weeks ish 🤞

I am also super cranky (my husband is taking the brunt of it, poor guy) - does anyone have any tips on how to stay sane while I try to make it through the week? 💕