I usually see my boyfriend twice a week. Been dating for 4 years. Whatever, I’m in his presence twice a week, just note that. Now, it’s been over a week since I’ve seen him. Haven’t had that happen to us in 3 years. Last time back in June 2016, we couldn’t see each other for a month. He was taking care of his dad after his corrective surgery to his leg from an accident that left him permanently disabled and forced him to retire early. He needed 24 hour care and was living down in the basement the entire summer. School was out, and we were going into senior year.

Now, he’s dealing with work giving him extra hours for someone who’s not showing up, and his free time is spent doing college work. I don’t have a car to go visit him, he’s alway off late at 9-10pm, and lives 45 minuets away from me. My body just feels sick. My head feels like I have a head cold, my stomach hurts, and the though of food makes me want to throw up. I haven’t been sleeping, and I just don’t understand why this is happening. It’s not that big of a big deal I can’t see him. Im able to see him next week for his birthday at least, so that’s good. But for now, I’ve just felt so disgusting and sick. Ugh 😣