11dpo and still negative

Michelle

It's been 8 months since my D&C and on my 5th cycle....I have long and irregular cycles.  

Every month I get so hopeful and every month I am let down. This month I started getting come cramps and tender breasts around 8dpo. Then 9dpo I felt like I was hit by a semi...headache, extreme fatigue, cramps, very tender breasts. So I tested and nothing. Then I tested again to day and 11 dpo and still nothing. Today I also have been having a fair amount of ewcm.

My last four cycles have had an LP (luteal phase) of 13,11 and 12 so I'm figuring I am out again this month.   I am starting to feel so defeated