35 weeks today! My first! It's a girl. We had the shower last week. Got all of the big things we need, but still have to get a lot of little things here and there.

Sleeping is so difficult, cant get comfortable and cant shut off my brain with all the things that still aren't ready.

My husband seems to be so carefree about it all. No sense of urgency at all. Doesn't help out around the house at all. Still thinks I should be able to do everything that I used to. Acts like I'm being dramatic when I ask him to help me move stuff or carry heavy objects.

I'm getting so nervous about giving birth and nursing. This is all I've ever wanted, to be a mom. But now that's its actually happening, I'm so scared.

My mom and sisters all say the same thing, "once you hold her, you'll forget about all that pain"

I'm so hoping that's the case.

I've also had a bit of prenatal depression through my pregnancy, so I'm also worried about post partum depression. I'm not returning to work. I'm going to be a stay at home mom. Which is what I've always wanted. But I know with depression, not having your regular schedule can be a hindrance.

I moved from the suburbs to the city, due to my husband's job, so I have no friends or family out here.

So I am worried that all this change at once is going to be hard to deal with alone.