I'm scared for tomorrow. It is the first day of the first week my husband goes back to work all week.

I'm scared to take the baby out of the house alone. Like now that he is not inside me I cant protect him as much.

I'm scared I'm going to loose my mind because I wont get enough sleep.

I'm scared of pissing off my mom because she is the one person that can help me whenever I need it.

I'm scared of post partum depression. Sometimes I want to cry for no real reason. I look at my beautiful boy and think "how will I protect you from harm, fear, bad, pain and the many other things in the world" and I want to cry. If it is a love song playing and I look at him I find tears in my view.

For the first time in 4 weeks. I'm feeling seriously scared. But I know my little prince will be okay, I will be okay and our family will be okay....

But for now, in this moment, I'm scared.