36+5 day Ranting

I’m due in June. But I can’t help but get mad cause I wish my ex was my baby’s father. I would constantly say I wish I had an abortion. My ex broke my jaw but yet I’m still thinking about him. I think life would be easier knowing my ex was secure . now I have this joke of a baby daddy . And stressed and unhappy. Aren’t I suppose to be happy not thinking, wishing about being my ex. I think I’m gonna have resentment towards this baby.