Trying for my rainbow 🌈

I got pregnant with our first baby christmas 18, i found out on my birthday the first of feb (10weeks) that my baby had no heart beat and had stopped growing at 6weeks 3 days. I took the medication and nothing happened so i went for a D&C on the 7th feb.

It took ages for my tests to go negative and then they turned positive again and i had got pregnant, i found out the beginning of march so with using the D&C i put myself around 4-5 weeks but then started bleeding just 2 days after finding out.

Ive since been on antibiotics for another medical issue i have so ive been told not to try for a baby. Ive now been off these for 2 weeks and ive just started a new cycle.

Me and my husband have decided to start trying this month and im so excited to finally be okay to try. But at the same time im so so anxious. So much has gone wrong in our family this year, with the 2 miscarriages, my grandads cancer diagnosis, my uncles death, my grandads dementia diagnosis and a cancer scare for my mum as well as a bad car accident for my husband. I feel like this year is cursed and as much as i want a baby im so so scared i will lose again :(

Ive always been obsessed with using opk and temping but i think this time im going to try and just let nature take its course....