Little background story, I broke up with my ex 4 months ago. We never really stopped talking to each other after the broke up. Although throughout those four months there were weeks we wouldn’t talk. But recently we have been talking every day for maybe 3 weeks non stop.

So on Thursday I told him that I still loved him and he told me that he still loved me as well. Which got me happy and excited with the hopes of us probably getting back together in the future.

But today his cousin (J), who I’m close to, love each other like sisters gave me heartbreaking news. She told me that randomly he texted her cousin who them two (ex, J) used to lived with. (Same address different houses) that he was single and wanted to get with her. She said no because he still has me everywhere (fb pp & on ig) so that she didn’t want problems. When I heard that, my heart broke.

I haven’t really told anyone we broke up only my mom, bfs, brother (my mom and brother think we got back together because how I said him and I have been hangout a lot) the rest of my brothers and dad still think we are together. I never told J even though I wanted to so many times because I was hoping we would get back together so that there was no need to tell anyone else. Was I wrong.

He has only told some people according to him that we not together anymore, that means that everyone else thinks we are.

I feel so numb that I can’t even cry when it hurts so much. He asked her last week, the same fucking week he told me he loved me. We even hangout (him&I) today after I was told because we had plans already and all the time I could think of what that he asked the other girl out.

I have met J’s cousin because I would go to their house. She’s a nice girl and really beautiful. I also know that he liked her and that he had asked her out way before him and I talked or got together but she said no. I also can’t remember but I think J said that he also told the cousin that he still liked her when he said her out again.

Idk what to do, I know that I have to let everyone know we not together anymore. How is it that he could look at me, hug me and all those things today when he had asked another girl out?! I just can’t, And the fact that i can’t confront him about it because I don’t want to get J in this. I just feel like screams my lungs or punching the shot out of something to stop feeling like shit or so stupid! And he has the fucking nerves to tell me goodnight I like you a lot (te quiero mucho) in spanish it sounds sweeter.