Who else is having a terrible time?

I started to write this super long rant from the beginning but it's 4am and I'm too tired to finish it so I'll spare you. Bottom line is I've been pumping almost exclusively this week because breastfeeding got painful again (need new shield? For some reason it wrinkles in the middle now.) And my tits are lumpy from clogged ducts and God knows what else. I don't understand how massaging and heat help?? I think I've surpassed that point anyway, no amount of kneading is gonna fix this. So I'm forcing myself to get seen tomorrow, I hate it. I just wish it was easier to breastfeed.