Hi Ive been a member for a while... but now I guess I can participate to this site and group.

LMP : 4/9/19

Ovulation: idk , bc my cycles are irregular 25-45 day cycles past few yrs)

HPT: 5/1/19 neg 5/4/19 neg 5/11/19 pos

5/12/19 pos urine & hcg @hospital

EDD: 1/14/20 & 1/20/20

I’m 41 years of age. My only living child just turned 23 May 9th.

Between the ages of 20-22 I’ve had 2 elective abortions and in later years I’ve had 8 miscarriages... all in the second trimester. The last time I conceived was in late summer 2013 and it ended in a mc in October 2013. My cycles became irregular ranging from 18-55 days. I sought help from my local fertility clinic. We were trying to conceive through medication and <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>’s. All failed. I wasn’t Ttc right now... But here I am.... pregnant with child. I want to be happy but I’m afraid. This is because my history allows me to get past the first 12 weeks. You would think the worries would be over. Mine just begin. It’s a crazy head space to be in bc I want to share the news but I also don’t want to disappoint my partner or get our hopes up bc I might not be able to carry this baby.

I’m here for support and to vent if need be. I don’t even want to go to the doctors 🤦🏽‍♀️