I Feel Guilty

I see so many posts about women whose babies have died or they can’t conceive and I just feel so bad because I literally have the best baby. He’s so easy and content. The only problem I’ve ever had with him is his naps were hard when he was little, but now they’re mostly good, predictable naps with no wakes at night. He’s super happy and smiley all the time. Not fussy at all. And yet, I regret the decision to keep him every day. I try to be happy and animated and make his life great, but I hate what his existence has done to my life. I wanted to place him for adoption, but his father won’t do it and I refuse to abandon him, so I have to raise him. I just feel so bad like he should go to someone that would love raising him; that would really appreciate him. Has anyone been through this?