In trying to avoid the postpartum bullshit i went through with My first child 4 years ago. My therapist put me on medication for depression and anxiety- but I didn’t wanna be medicine deemed. So I don’t take it. The littlest things are setting me off, right now I’m guessing I’m getting engorged again, all of a sudden my pump isn’t exactly pumping. Like it’s pumping & the suction is there but it’s not pulling through the Flange at all. So I’m about to break it. For the last 6 hours I’ve gotten maybe .5 from my right boob but it hurts. I’ve nursed him but I’m already raw asf and no matter how hard I try I can’t get my nipple any further in his mouth cause it’s too big. ( my baby is tongue tied, were scheduled for a frenectomy in two weeks. He has a strong ass latch but it’s shallow) My body hurts. I can’t sit straight up cause my tailbone goes numb, I can’t lay on my back for long cause it makes everything else hurt more and when I try my sides I feel like something is broken. Everytime i tell anyone they say “well you just had a baby you have to heal”. I’m trying. I don’t do anything extra but take care of my baby as well as my 4 year old and that’s hard when i can’t function without crying in pain. My feet are STILL swelling and it hurts to the touch now. I’m trying to avoid all of this but it’s not working and I’m scared rn, that’s a scary place I don’t wanna visit no more. I hate to sound like I’m complaining about everything but idk what’s going on