Survivor

In 1997 I started to live a hell that only comes to an end in 2012. I always started I meet a guy. He looks a little weird but I was need for love and thought that he was the prince charm. Than he became a little possessive and I thought that was because he loved me. In 1999 he tried to break up with me and that was my mistake: I cried and bagged him to stay. He stayed and started to treat me like trash and I thought that I deserved. In 2000 we broke up and I started to try to live but the minute that he realized that I was going out he invited me to go out. He was my drug so I accepted. In 2001 started de violence : first he started to scream and push me away. I thought that I deserved because I asked to stay so I stayed. In 2004 I broke up and than he cried and said that he loved me. I believed and i went back to him. In 2007 he almost destroyed the house and I run away. He come back crying again and I said to myself if we get together he changed. Because he put in my head that was my family fault that we didn't get along. And I believed. In 2011 I was afraid to him because he said that if I leave him he will kill my whole family. On that time I couldn't eat because I couldn't use more that size 0. I didn't have friends because he said that nobody likes me like him. I lost so many jobs because of him that was unbelievable. I couldn't go to the church because he said that was waist of time. I was lost.Than aI figured out that he had an affair and worse she tried to kill herself because of him. So I decided to leave him and he suffered an accident that almost kill him. So I put on my head Iam going to stay until he gets better. This only happened 6 months later. During this time he humiliated me and all the usual things. In 2012 one of the days he said help me but one week after he tried to kill me suffocating me. I run away and he followed me. I was in a building under construction and I only thought he is going to kill me. But when the elevator opens that was a lady inside cleaning so he stopped. When the door closed she turned to me and said: It's over. God loves you. Pick what ever he gives to you but never come back or he kills you. I did what God asked. And now I married again and I never been so happy. I have my faith back. True friends and use clothes bigger than size 0. So believe God have plains for you. I had to write this to make me see that everything happens when God wants and I know that the Sun comes and I can wait. Iam on a totally different phase but I had to remember that to know that I can wait because God had plans for me. And this just brings me a enormous peace in my heart and make me laugh to see how stupid this story was, so I know that Iam. Healed finally.